Tag: endorphins

Work, MCAT Study, Workout, Work

Oh boy.

I had dairy in tea recently thanks to Tim Horton’s Roll Up the Rim contest, which I am a total sucker for, and I am really attributing this weird mood I’ve been in to that. NO TO DAIRY.

I believe with my whole heart that I am meant to be a physician. I am meant to lead with kindness, knowledge, and compassion. I want to take care of other humans and be a source of inspiration like my doctors have been for me. But when studying for the MCAT, it can seem like a farfetched, unimaginable idea.

My brain does not understand physics. I’m teaching myself organic chemistry, and I haven’t even started biochemistry yet. But I’m scared. Everytime I sit down to tackle a chapter, I have to force myself to focus just on what I am doing. I can’t get overwhelmed with the vast amounts of knowledge that I don’t know  yet, or that I have yet to conquer.

I’m balancing this with working full time, remotely, which is actually difficult but I appreciate the flexibility that it affords me. I’m also trying to workout everyday as I know I always feel better mentally when I do. I’m also trying to loose weight before my wedding.

I’ve been feeling an urge to write, so here I am. I can’t really wrap my head around journaling, so I’m going to online journal. I think that’s a good warm up to an actual journal. It’ll get me in the habit of putting words down, or rather getting them out of my head.

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A Dose of Sunshine

It is really amazing what a day of sunshine can do for a mind shift. I am a self-professed non early morning person. My days don’t flow when I am awaken by an alarm clock. I function much better easing into a day around the 9 or 10 o’clock hour. I know this and I try to structure my days round this very clear fact after months of testing early morning routines.

I do love setting up workouts or signing up for yoga classes in the morning and go to bed always with so much enthusiasm for them. But every single time, when the morning rolls around and I have a class to go to, I absolutely dread it and it is a complete battle in my mind. 9 times out of 10 I will cancel it at the last moment. Today was an example of this but I forced myself to ignore that voice in my head telling me to stay in bed. I got up and took transit to a (*free) yoga class over town. I wasn’t really feeling it until I got there. Friendly faces and good music really can lift your mood.

I realize I kind of get that feeling every time after I exercise. But the struggle to get there is so enormous. I really don’t focus on the post exercise feels. I wish there was a way to make the morning much flow-y-er.

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